December 2023

 Hello, I have not posted for ages due to looking after my little ones.

With life and everything that it comes with the biter and the sweet, we have not been on the water ways for over two years now.

We have had so much lost in our lives and hope that 2023 offers us a new beginning now that we can start to move forward.

My son Bryndly was diagnosed with autism on the 1st December 2022.

One the 1st December 2014 I have my gallbladder removed and found out that I was 6 weeks pregnant when I had this operation. (I found this out when I went for my fist scan and was already 16 weeks gone.)

I spent the last 8 months of my life thinking about how having this operation may affect my unborn child.

It was a very stressful time with my being another high-risk pregnancy and living on the canal network.

My son was finally born 10 days early whilst we were moored at Coventry Canal basin.

The labour started the same time as my fist child, and I gave birth with in 2 hours after my waters broke.

I tried to stay on the water and did so for about 6months but felt like something was not right.

So, I rented a house in my hometown so that my son could get the care he needed, if anything was wrong.

7 years later, I am home schooling my son, and now have been told that he as autism, we are going to sleep clinic on the 22nd December and he will be assisted for ADHD too.

My choice of to leave my life on the water ways, was hard for my oldest son and he still hates ne for doing so choosing to live with his father.

Yet I know that I need to put my child's needs first and try and get him the help that I always believed that he needed.

For 7 years I have lived in limbo and live as been like a living hell, especially when you are waiting and know that you are right.

Getting this conformation for me helps, it proves to people that I was right and not lying.

To be accused of lying about being sick and having a disabled child for the past 20 years of my life, I would not wish on anyone.

Now we can move forward and maybe back to the canal even if it is only part time.

I will home school my son, he happy.

To me, being happy is important.

No one really knows what the future holds.

So, for now I am not going to make my son still behind a desk.

I am not going to make be told to sit down and shut up by strangers.

I am going to let him sing, dance, and read about trains, boats, buses and aeroplanes.

We will look at teaching be CAD and hopefully some life skills that you do not learn in a classroom.

How to live, love and laugh.

To help me be himself.

Then maybe I will learn to do the same and to forgive myself.